Are you the Goddess of thoughts on wing,
That makes the juice in the heart spring.
I call on you who can make my eyes sing.

In all your glamorous detail I could digress
But your finest essence I shall now address.

Radiant loveliness in every cell
That power you give to me so well.

In elegant form, exquisitely trailing,
Clouds of glory, never failing.

You are the very gift of heart's desire
Awaiting the return of the Goddess love,

Hear my call.

Because the Goddess is a creation of idealized feminine energy, she is a creation of my own feminine Goddess power now returning to its source. She can only exist as one with the God force, for they cannot be separated. Blended together, not as positive and negative, male and female, but as power and grace in the new paradigm of Paradise.

I claim what I deserve by reason of my service to the One I love. These words on this paper serve as a program ticket being sent out in a bottle on an ocean of consciousness, or a tool, guided like a space probe into a physical world to find my physical Goddess. I will be very specific about my Goddess to prevent any future human doubt that I create my own reality.

My identity will not be revealed because my vibration and purpose are more important, consequently I choose to communicate under the pen name HERMES X. If this ticket, so to speak, is reunited with its claim tag, you will hold my total self in your hands. And if it fits your description to the letter, rejoice and claim union with your heart as part of the whole and all that is.

My description of your physical and spiritual existence is an eternal vision of my God (male) force blending with the Goddess in an androgynous and magical reunion. The two higher selves become one, each ruled by their own sovereign laws.

Each obeys the laws of being and nurtures a free and spontaneous way to produce different music from the same source. Each an inspiration to each other, fusing into one with two bodies that create the synthesis of androgynous energy, to regenerate the magic of heaven.

This wizard's promise to his ultimate female muse is that he will find her again while traveling through his Spiritual worlds. This quest is his dream to play with her again in the lush gardens and forest groves of the magical planet, Gaia, and to co-create with brothers and sisters, the new Virgin paradigm of Who We Are.

I am writing this vision quest, a description of my Goddess, so that she is clear about who she is. As a result of her power, she has the ability to read between the lines or know directly what she is seeking; the reason for coming to partake in the birth of the new paradigm. By being so specific, I am challenging the infinite odds of finding her. If I changed the age, eye color or any variable, thousands more possibilities would be created, rather than to zero in on the one precise fulfillment of my dream.

Personal Assets of My Goddess

The Goddess is well prepared for heaven on earth, therefore does not bring financial burden and is self-supporting in her own interests and activities. Her health is excellent. Her quick mind, fueled by her fine education, will be familiar with comparative religions and philosophy and knowledge of Sanskrit or other languages. She is a writer, artist, musician or doctor with an ability to speak inspiringly in public. She has no current husband or children, is able to meditate, drive a car, travel abroad, photograph, shop and hike. She is assertive (not pushy) and not self-important. Her innate and well developed qualities are forgiveness, regeneration, family feeling and care for those who honor and express the living force of their being through the Goddess energy.

The Goddess is able to forgive herself and everyone else for anything from their past Karma. She does not have fears of intimacy or feelings of paranoia, hatred, denial, ingratitude, blame, bitterness, or self-pity. Apart from being a natural authority on such matters, the Goddess is not emotionally attached to a name, fame, money or its power. Rather, her abundance frequencies will always manifest magically through financial wisdom. She is a loyal and able business partner and a fearless investor in projects never before accomplished on earth.

This Goddess has a bold and courageous heart and is very sensitive in a nonreactive way. She is my best friend and is intuitive of our diverse and widely spread spiritual family. She can halt boredom in its tracks. She can transcend arguments and nitpicking words fast. Her voice is deliberate, soft and melodious. She has a giving and selfless nature, is receptive and discerning with overall good taste. She is not extravagant, though self-rewarding. Her very essence of being is sheer joy and my daily entertainment.

We will indulge in our finest source of entertainment, one another, and bask in the beauty of the kingdom I have created for us to share. This will lessen the need for outside entertainment, except by choice or from need of adventure. She has no obsessions for fancy restaurants, however, she appreciates gourmet food for its elegance rather than its gratification.

Our home will be a busy heart center of a magical paradigm where the supervision of cooking, housekeeping, cleaning and office organization will be part of her joy, either through her own participation or by our staff. The Goddess is a fine cook so when we are alone, our home becomes our favorite restaurant, and I become co-chef.

The Goddess energy cannot be contained, possessed or captured, except through the power of total receptivity and deep compassion. It cannot be bought, manipulated, controlled, or coerced...it just is. The lover of a Goddess receives the greatest pleasure from spiritualizing the sensual, and elevating all sensations into energy orgasms focused in each and every chakra. The male energy softly and intimately touches the subtle energy field in several ways; to hug and blend, to caress and be caressed, to cherish and appreciate a union with the Goddess energy. She also desires total appreciation of the feminine intelligence deep within her, serving as an energy channel in the Goddess frequency band. The body and spirit of an earth Goddess are her gifts of magical power to blend the world of creative imagination and illusion. The Goddess will mix her energy of equal intensity and power with mine to blend the heart and sexual energies into a spontaneous third force culmination in the new paradigm. For beyond the dualistic energies of our present Gods and Goddesses lies the blended unity of ONE.

Physical Attributes of My Goddess

The physical qualities of my Goddess are challenging to specify because in nature there are many physical factors to balance. I choose to write in detail what I want, without limitations or doubts about their practicality. Maybe I will throw away this list of attributes whenever I see the essence of my love is received.

Her bone structure is balanced with her feminine grace. Her high cheek bones signal adventure and her dainty ears astuteness. The eyes of my Goddess shine with lovelight below her forehead which is tall. Her hands are beautiful and slender. Her nails are naturally well manicured. Her personal hygiene regimen boasts of white teeth, clear skin and a largely vegetarian diet, allowing her to maintain her ideal weight.

The Goddess loves to challenge and be challenged with love and responds with spontaneous energy. Sexually, she is active and alternately receptive and aggressive, and imaginatively romantic and tender. She possesses a great deal of wild, emotional, physical and spiritual passion but does not display it openly. However, she is capable of projecting it into any situation with queenly grace.

Novelty and change are sprinkled lovingly over a life rooted in goodness. She is versed in the Tantric Arts and willing to be a vehicle for the Goddess energy and holder of the Goddess frequency band through all sensitive situations.

My Goddess loves fun and youthful adventure as much as she loves laughing, children, music, excitement, wonder, ecstasy, touching, surprises and dancing divinely.

Her Venus and Sun are preferred in Pisces and her planets are favorable to mine. Her level of appreciation of the gifts of life and consciousness is especially intense over the smallest things. She is effervescent with loveliness and will answer to the Goddess frequency at any moment. She will appreciate and respect freedom and return it as a mutual gift to one another as equals.

Although my Goddess loves all children and animals, she is evolved beyond physical child bearing. The concentration of her energy will not be used for animal pets requiring constant care. Pets are unnecessary since our house is surrounded by wild animals. Flocks of wild doves and other birds roost, mountain lions and bobcats prowl, wild ducks visit the pond, deer saunter to the back door, wild peacocks come to the front door and scores of hummingbirds feed continuously on the blooms they fancy. The views of the estate are comparable with those of scenic vistas. We await the one who appreciates nature and knows this heartfelt canvas to be an accurate and precise description of her Goddess being.

The Goddess may only be contained in a beautiful definition of sheer intelligence manifesting as feminine energy, a wondrous, powerful and receptive force that allows humans to imagine and create things that have never been. She possesses the divine power to press the heart button in everyone which will enhance my power to create the reality I desire.

My Goddess possesses the natural talent of music whether playing or singing, and can chant (with me) the harmonies of the heavenly frequencies. The love I give will reflect her loveliness back into her heart crystal and concentrate my power of love. I will not be concerned about how much love my Goddess can handle, because she will be equal. There cannot be too much love. The difficulty is not in the giving but in the receiving. Real lovers hunger for more even when there is plenty. The Goddess is a love generator.

There is enough positive energy to go around for all on the planet to have abundance, but the Goddess can only give it when we can receive it. She is deeply intimate and magical in every chakra, totally aware of levels of consciousness, their unity and their energy fields.

My Goddess will never humiliate anyone in public or private or use her power to hurt or manipulate. She will achieve her goals by inspiring and loving people. My vision quest is to incorporate her essence in my heart, to become the pure frequency of her love. Having her hear this divine call is not the main propose of this vehicle, but to meet. What we initially recognize as merely divine love's recognition, will become a raging current of spiritual passion and fun. I have waited years to catch a glimpse of my etheric Goddess manifest in a human body. I've believed I will know the human Goddess energy when I see and feel it.

I have been told to write down the qualities I wish to find in my Goddess, who is somewhere, waiting for me. This is a personal change from "seeing is believing" to believing one creates one's reality. I am emitting radionically, the frequencies of my kingdom of desire to whomever can receive and respond to the source. Please come personally or send a video impregnated with your heart vibration.

To avoid projecting my own limitations into my dream, I am asking close friends to share and comment on my description. I understand most think I am asking for the impossible, but in reality I have always received miracles. I hope you do too!

The Goddess understands why this outer confirmation is necessary to avoid the usual human reaction which is, "It is too good to be true." When it's from heaven it seems that way, but it is true! I would like to have the gift of the Goddess NOW!! She has been waiting for a model and I am ready and able for it to manifest in my life.

I embrace all joy. I value myself as a person of virtue and benefit to others, which adds to my value. I am a multi-dimensional being expanding every minute. My work and play are one in my numerous worlds of reality and various illusions of business. I especially love my work as an activist in international nonprofit philanthropy, since all my associates are fun to be with and 100% lovable.

I specified my desires for the creation of my Goddess, but realize without placing limits on my dream, the Goddess can present a miracle which surpasses even her own expectations. If my wish is exceeded, I will certainly receive its abundance in total appreciation of the Goddess.

I came to this planet to create a better world bearing new scientific understandings in energy fields and their uses in healing, divining, and personal transformation. I have developed frequencies of an originator, philosopher, new thought messenger, physicist, scientist, world family member, leader and Lover. My purpose is in developing my Goddess power and grace to the maximum potential. My dream is to blend my energy with my Goddess in the co-creation of a new race of Beings.

July 11, 1995

My Dear Penny,

Look upon these pages as the joyful days I conceived and wrote my long vision quest. By blending with the heart of her joy and power, my living Goddess emerged with all the frequencies of lovliness. Creating a seed atom of love and thought in the nucleus of our being, we have jointly charged two human souls to merge together on the same divine path.

For you to find and know the miracle of my dream, there had to be the twin faith that she would come magically into form, so that she could move freely in our hearts and minds. It was our gift to provide her with the love and bodies that she could play with in the realm of heaven's mysteries.

You are that magic dream come true, for you are the very best of life and goodness that has brought us to the full reality and truth of our existence.

What we live together in this moment will become the vision of grace and power, merged in the joyful fruits of all our yesterdays.

Hidden in each eternal moment of our bliss, resides the Vision of the next moment of manifestation, because she is the wonder and glory of living love, she is the creation of our blended higher selves in one union. What else could give us the power of these immortal moments of Divine Love? What else could manifest this wild dream and make it real? What else could have pressed the flesh into the marvelous attraction of our oneness? What else could have brought such lovely elegance and happiness into being?

I feel lucky to have such a gift in answer to my call. I feel lucky that my vision came true, but even more lucky that I can have you beyond all limitations.

I open my private files to share this letter with you as a confirmation of the miracle that came into our lives; a confirmation of the fact that love IS, that romance of the highest caliber can actually BE.The level of appreciation Christopher offered me was the greatest blessing any being can confer upon another. He confirmed me on the level of my soul and allowed the deepest aspirations of my heart of hearts to fully blossom. I will be eternally grateful to this man whose finely-honed and developed qualities of vision and action were tempered with such exquisite humility. His boundless love focused on me but extended to all humanity, and to this beloved planet we call home. I honor him eternally for these gifts which made him truly a king, a god, among men.

On January 31, 1997, Christopher consciously took his last breath. According to the star wisdom of the ancient Egyptian mysteries, the day held this resonance: 'In my beginning is my end, and in my end is my beginning.'

He had told me that he would only know that he was dead when I looked into his eyes and I told him so. So I did. "Yes, Christopher, you've made it. You've crossed over," I spoke with soundless words. Thank Goddess we had the 'no limits' contract! Love never dies, we are the proof. This is the truth.